Saturn’s Reckoning

Saturn, the planet with the rings. The planet of hard lessons, burdens, limitations, isolation, and misery.

When Saturn first entered Pisces, in 2023, I felt an enormous shift. I had just finished up a two-year cycle of Saturn transiting my 12th house. The weight of Saturn took such an emotional toll on me, that I became physically ill. It took almost all of 2023 for me to recover. And in that recovery, I realized how much of a burden my feelings had truly become.

As Saturn made its way through elusive, sensitive Pisces, I found myself becoming more and more hermetic. My usual extroverted disposition had turned into someone who craved quiet. Aloneness. I didn’t feel isolated, I felt liberated. Freedom, flexibility, and independence had become necessary for my emotional wellbeing.

I took a deep look at how I got to where I am now. I became painfully aware of all my faults, past and present. The defects I had previously used as a catalyst for my victim mentality had now become cement blocks that were pulling me down and drowning me. I wanted nothing more than to shed everything i knew up until this point.

So I did. I stopped holding people to unattainable standards, including myself. I stopped getting angry at people for BEING themselves. I spent so much of my life resenting Piscean energy without even realizing it— people with no backbone, no discipline, and no sense of responsibility or commitment. My way was the right way. I always took ownership and set (overly) rigid boundaries for myself. I said what I meant and I meant what I said, so why couldn’t anyone else?

And for the record, I am very Saturnian in nature. I have Aquarius Rising with Saturn in my first house. I live and breathe tradition, structure, and commitment. I believe duty gives us purpose. Achievements and growth happen through hardship. Strong sense of justice and fairness type autism. You get where I’m going…

There is a reason Saturn rules an earth sign, and a FIXED air sign. Us Caps and Aqua placements do. not. budge.

Saturn in Pisces has helped me find gentleness but strength, visions built on reality, fluidity with grounded-ness… It has been a delayed blessing, learning how to navigate the oceanic realm of Pisces— and I have Venus in Pisces! I am no stranger to escapism or creative endeavors. My issue was in learning the art of surrender.

Saturn teaches us where the inner work lies, and how to develop real strength and wisdom in that area. This is my first Saturn Return, and my own experience with having my natal Saturn in Pisces. Visit my blog post on Saturn in the Signs to understand how your Saturn placement limits you, or what qualities you are here to master in this lifetime.